Oh, L'amour. She's a motherfucker no? (the sequel)
so sorry it has been too long since ive posted. my computer adiosed itself to lubbock for a time and i was without any means of communication. it was horrible. but we've since been reunited - so let the blogging commence!
when i posted Lamour she is a motherfucker, no? (pt. 1) i had no idea how prophetic that would turn out to be.
forget about the crush. i have. i no longer talk to him and whatever was there, has now gone. boo hoo, im all choked up about it. moving on.
since my last post, much has happened. privacy and a keen self-preservation instinct prohibits me from blogging about it here in what has become such a public forum. however, let me just say that things were done that cannot be undone. feelings were hurt and friendships lost and all i can say is now is the time for mending what can be and building anew. i think my feelings can best be expressed in a song from the movie "latter days" (no judgements!) :
"tuesday. 3am.
Once again, I'm wide awake.
Waiting for time to mend this part of me,
that keeps on breaking.
newspapers i threw away. washed the dishes in the sink.
3am on tuesday - i have too much time to think.
and i could call up to heaven
or i could crawl down through hell.
nothing can change the way things are and nothing ever will."
S.S. and M.C. i have nothing but apologies and hope for the both of you. (considerably more for S.S.)
well then, that being said - i was awash in self pity until i checked my blog yesterday and found a new comment! from none other than the soulmate i mentioned in L'amour is a motherfucer pt. 1! i had resigned myself to a life of spinsterdom and now i feel i must reconsider. HOWEVER. now that i know he has seen said blog - can i continue to blog about him freely?! (by the by, ive never actually met said soulmate. just read his blog which is amusing, to say the very least.) ill think on it some more and decide whether or not i can be completely honest (as per my original reasoning for keeping this site anonymous and while im doing that, everyone should view this and be moved.
when i posted Lamour she is a motherfucker, no? (pt. 1) i had no idea how prophetic that would turn out to be.
forget about the crush. i have. i no longer talk to him and whatever was there, has now gone. boo hoo, im all choked up about it. moving on.
since my last post, much has happened. privacy and a keen self-preservation instinct prohibits me from blogging about it here in what has become such a public forum. however, let me just say that things were done that cannot be undone. feelings were hurt and friendships lost and all i can say is now is the time for mending what can be and building anew. i think my feelings can best be expressed in a song from the movie "latter days" (no judgements!) :
"tuesday. 3am.
Once again, I'm wide awake.
Waiting for time to mend this part of me,
that keeps on breaking.
newspapers i threw away. washed the dishes in the sink.
3am on tuesday - i have too much time to think.
and i could call up to heaven
or i could crawl down through hell.
nothing can change the way things are and nothing ever will."
S.S. and M.C. i have nothing but apologies and hope for the both of you. (considerably more for S.S.)
well then, that being said - i was awash in self pity until i checked my blog yesterday and found a new comment! from none other than the soulmate i mentioned in L'amour is a motherfucer pt. 1! i had resigned myself to a life of spinsterdom and now i feel i must reconsider. HOWEVER. now that i know he has seen said blog - can i continue to blog about him freely?! (by the by, ive never actually met said soulmate. just read his blog which is amusing, to say the very least.) ill think on it some more and decide whether or not i can be completely honest (as per my original reasoning for keeping this site anonymous and while im doing that, everyone should view this and be moved.
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