Closure

i recently visited a good friend in our nation's capitol. and by good friend, i mean ex boyfriend.

the visit was, to say the least, really emotionally expansive. the kind that leaves you with a general feeling of contentment. but, en leiu of blogging about it, i think my feelings can best be described through quoting from the hit gwen stefani song, "cool"

Passes things get more comfortable. Everything is going right. And after all the obstacles. It’s good to see you now with someone else. And it’s such a miracle that you and me are still good friends. After all that we’ve been through. I know we’re COOL.

:: this is where we talked about how im happy for him that he has a new boyfriend, even though the new boyfriend was kind of a jackass to me but i still care for him very much, so im glad to see him happy::

We used to think it was impossible. Now you call me by my new last name. Memories seem like so long ago. Time always kills the pain. Remember Harbor Boulevard. The dreaming days where the mess was made. Look how all the kids have grown. We have changed but we’re still the same. After all that we’ve been through. I know we’re COOL

:: and now we talk about how our relationship ended and how it was hard on both of us. the not sharing, the things that went unsaid and the miscommunication. a little bit of hurt, first mine, then his. and how we are happy that things ended the way they did and that we are still friends::

And I’ll be happy for you. If you can be happy for me. Circles and triangles, and now we’re hangin’ out with your new girlfriend. So far from where we’ve been. I know we’re COOL.

:: and this is where we decided that we should always be friends. or at least, i decided, in my own head. because whatever happens for me in the future, he was my first love. ::

i feel so emo. who needs psychiatry?